Alive with Our Lord

Today at Easter Mass, I feel you alive with Our Lord. It brings joy to Mummy and Daddy, Our Lord is kind to us.

Written alone beside him

Daddy is sitting with you Jeremiah, I am beside you. I had promised that each day we would take up arms of Love for you. That was the same day some had thought it better you didn't live. We loved you from the day we knew you in Ma-Ma womb. We had been with you to the very end. You are with your true Father now. Your time with us is very special, it has blessed many lives. Daddy had asked Our Lord for a miracle but Our Lord knows us better; he has given me my deepest desire. The desire that my sons would walk the path of Jesus and their lives will be a blessing to others. I have been praying for this holiness in each of you, since the day your brother Joshua was born. You are the first in our family to receive this holiness; Our Lord has made you sinless. In your short life, His Grace has protected you and passed through you to others. You are a blessing and our joy is in this.

Mummy is a very strong woman. You can be very proud of her as I am, she had carried you with so much love and hope, every movement of yours made her excited. Daddy had been very concern about her and at times had unnecessarily worried about her. But Our Lord had taught Daddy to give everything to Him and to live with everything for Him. During this time with you, I have love and cherish your mummy even more, it is because of the way she had loved you and felt about you. Daddy loves her very deeply and she loves daddy deeply.

Your brothers were busy playing while you were busy in the womb. But that is very thing that makes them so special; it is the way they play, with each other that bring so much joy to mummy and daddy. We had asked so many times of The Lord, to give you this time of playful joy with them. I believe then, that you would have enjoyed yourself very much with them. Your brothers have brought us a deeper love for you. It is the way they are, that has taught us, how much we can love our sons. Your brother Joshua cried when I told him what happen at the hospital. You take care of them, now that you are with Our Heavenly Father.

I have gotten you a good god-father, god-pa Francis has been with you and he has been with us, above all times, on the morning you left us. So then please also take care of him. With us are many friends who cares for the family, at your life time, they have prayed and fasted for you. We have greatly felt love from them, now it is you who is to praying for us.

It is written in the Talmud – Save one life, save the world. Daddy had sought from the Lord to save your life; amazingly it is daddy’s life Our Lord had saved again. Daddy has been given a deeper love, a love that can love in sorrow. I have cried before meeting you. I was mournful before seeing you. I walk now joyful, I stand now bravely, and I sit now gratefully. – I have a Saint today with me.

We will see you soon; there is another reason, to be ready in meeting Our Lord for Eternity. Farwell and see you soon, we love you, Jeremiah, my little one.

He lived

Our son Jeremiah pass way in the womb at 2:30AM on 25 Jan 2010.

love you like your brothers

My Dearest Jeremiah,

I felt so inadequate as a mum moments ago. I thought about your brothers and how I have not loved them deeply enough. When the thought of you came to my mind, I began to fear I may not be able to cope. How lack of faith I was!

Tears began to flow down as I felt helpless but crying aloud to Jesus to help me. Coincidentally, I opened the mailbox and received a Christmas card from Baby River who reminded me he is looking forward to see and play with you. His card also reminded me to live each day with meaning, truth and faith. He also affirmed me that I was brave and strong .

I have never thought of myself that way. All I ever wanted to do is to love you like your brothers. But O how little our Love is compared to Our Dear Precious Savior who so willingly given up his life for us, the unworthy sinners.

My dear Jesus, pour out that spirit you have within me as I embrace what is to come without fear. Help me to be a good mum and a loving wife to my beloved husband. I thank you for all the Graces showered on my family and rejoice in your goodness ,mercy and faithfulness. Let me be your instrument of LOVE for my family. I am nothing without you. Only you know my heart and my pain. Help me to Trust you with the Little Faith I have. May you grant Jeremiah a life Long and Full to show all how you save!

I rescue all who clings to me , I protect whoever knows my name,

I answer everyone who invokes in me,

I am with them when they are in trouble; I bring them safety and honour.

I give them life long and full,

And show them how I can save.

( Psalm 91:14-16)

I love you and your 2 gaw gaws. You are all made beautifully by Jesus. Super Precious and Super Special.

With LOVE,

Mummy

29th December 2009

Beautiful and Wonderful

My Dearest Jeremiah,

When I read your daddy’s recent entry titled “ These moments”, tears could not stop pouring down. How I long so much for the Lord to make you well like your brothers. How I long to see you being cradled in my arms and walking and enjoying the sunshine in the Park . I truly long for you to be part of our family and the family of God whom everyone is praying so fervently for – for you to partake in our lives.

I never knew we already have so much love for you till your daddy’s words touched my soul and reminded me of all the unforgettable memories I had with your brothers. My prayer now is you will live and grow strong like a champion of our Lord inside me. You have been so active and responsive these few days. I would like to think you are Happy inside me, Kicking and Praising Jesus who never ceases to be with you. I pray HE will knit you into a beautiful and wonderful being so that your every existence only bring Glory to HIS NAME.

We await you being born if it is HIS WILL. We can ony Trust and Hope in Faith for God’s plan to unfold.

I love you very much. I love your sweet brothers very much too. You are our 3 precious sons; Precious gifts from Heaven .

With Lots of Love,

Mummy

These Moments

I asked Joshua, if he could remember me carrying him as a baby. He said, "yes" and added he remembers himself lying in the pram, while I was pushing it. The moment which we were thinking of is our walk in Bishan Park. I cannot recall well of those events but the memory of Joshua, then, remains vivid in my heart. It is the memory of holding him, feeling the joy of him.

Memories connotes our relationships, it produces much feelings in us. These moments we have with Joshua and John, actualize even more our love for Jeremiah. It is memories with them, that we can love greater Jeremiah. We can love Jeremiah in joy or in sorrow. They are all moments of love.

Breath of Life

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"I do not know how you came into existence in my womb; it was not I who gave you the breath of life, nor was it I who set in order the elements of which each of you is composed.

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Therefore, since it is the Creator of the universe who shapes each man's beginning, as he brings about the origin of everything, he, in his mercy, will give you back both breath and life, because you now disregard yourselves for the sake of his law."

2 Maccabees 7.22-23